An explanation

I guess that I should explain things a little bit better. I want people to know that I am not putting all the blame on Drew for our marriage to have fallen apart. I had some to do with that. What I feel is his fault is that he was the one that filed for divorce and does not want to try to work things out. He is the on that is not willing to compromise anything so that we can be together again. So the problems are not his fault but the divorce is. He thinks that we would be better off on our own, I think that is how he put it.

A New Development

Okay, I think that I really need to update things here. How do I put this. My happy little family is not so happy anymore. My sweet little girls and I are back living with my parents in Blackfoot, and we have been here since the first of October. We are waiting on things to settle, Drew has also filed for divorce. Sometimes I feel like some of my family (siblings & in-laws) are secretly happy because they wanted my marriage to fail, but then I know that they could see where things were going anyway so they are just happy that I can move on in life and find true happiness with someone that will care for me. For the last 5 years I have been trying to get someone to change into someone that he didn't think he needed to be.
Anyway I really am struggling with this because I am more than willing to take one more chance to change things but Drew is too scared that it would only last for maybe a month and then things will go back to the same way again. Personally I don't think that he really loves me like he says he does, if he did than he would quite his job with his Dad and move us somewhere where neither family is around to influence either of us and then start over. Anyway I think that he was just looking for and escape out, he found it and he is taking it. This really hurts but I need to convince myself that it is for the best.
It has been a long time since I posted anything but I think that is all that I have for now.

Finally; Teeth!!

Wow I can't believe that it has taken so long, I thought she was never going to get teeth. Now she does and wow there are two! She will be 14 months on the 5 of Sept. and to me it is really strange to see her with teeth. The funny thing is even though she did not have teeth it never prevented her from eating things. She would want to eat something so I would give her something and wait by her she would work at it sometimes it would get caught and before I could even get my hands to her she would have coughed it up and been working at it again. I never really had much problems with her.
I could tell from the time she first wanted to roll over that she was going to be a very stubborn baby, in that if she wanted to do something she was going to do it. If she is wanting to eat something she will eat it. The only thing that I will not give her are, nuts and hard candies. Everything else she has learned how to eat. She has got a very strong bite, I am scared for her dentist, but he gets paid to stick fingers in peoples mouths so he made the choice.

On another note, I am really struggling with something and I don't know if any of you will be reading this before Sunday or will be able to reply but I would like some help with something. MaCenz has been given the assignment to give a talk, her first one, in Primary on Sunday. I don't know where to get any information, I was never very good at writing my own talks when I was growing up and in fact just, 3 years ago when asked to talk in Sacrament I had to have a lot of help from Drew and my Mom on writing my talk. The theme in Primary this month is "I will show my faith in Jesus Christ by being baptized and confirmed," or we can choose our own topic. I really don't know what to have her say, she speaks really quite clear so I am not worried of people not being able to understand her and getting frustrated if I give her a lot of things to have to say. I was really dreading the day that she would get asked to give a talk in Primary.
Oh well, I shouldn't be so negative about this, she is very excited to be able to give a talk in Primary, I should be supportive of her and get her a talk written.

Why did God create children so damn cute?

As I have been trying to do some school work this morning I have had to repeatedly pull my children out of this or that. Then you hear, "Mommy look at Bruklynn" or "Mommy Bruklynn pulled my hair" or "Mommy she has my crayons". When I went to get Bruklynn out of this or take something away from her she just looks at me as I walk up and just the biggest smile on her face appears as if to say "you love me because I am so damn cute" and then she giggles and runs off to get into something else. This is just my frustration that would probably do me in if I didn't love them so much.